| Location | Eye, Suffolk |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 19/08/2007 |
| Date of Death | 19/08/2007 |
| Visitors | 1,182 since 09/10/2007 |
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My daughter Gabrielle Ruth was stillborn at 25 weeks on 19/8/07 after I went for a routine 24 week check up and was told to go to hospital for some monitoring as my bp was a bit high. This was on the Tuesday morning (14th), by the afternoon I had been admitted and my blood pressure had gone up to 213 / 125 and wasn't coming down. They tried various bp medications and gave me a mag sulphate drip. The drs tried to get me into a stable condition so they could transfer me to Addenbrookes and deliver the baby but my blood pressure stayed so high that they couldn't risk the transfer. Eventually on Fiday 17th August 2007 at 8.15pm they discovered that all the medication needed to save me had caused Gabrielle to stop breathing. I was induced on the Saturday morning and Gabrielle was eventually born asleep on the Sunday evening.
This all came as a complete surprise as I already have two boys aged 8 and 6 and all three children have the same dad. I had no signs of pre-eclampsia in my previous pregnancies and no symptoms at all apart from the bp raise with Gabrielle. I also didn't fit into any of the risk catergories
I have been told that I am incredibly lucky to be alive and that its very unusual for pe to develop the way mine did, i have heard it called fulminating pre-eclampsia. I do feel lucky to be blessed with my boys but I so wish Gabrielle was here as well.
"A tiny flower lent not given to bud on earth and bloom in Heaven"
Precious Child by Karen Taylor Good
In my dreams, you are alive and well
Precious child, precious child
In my mind, I see you clear as a bell
Precious child, precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart, there is hope
'Cause you are with me still
In my heart, you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
In my plans, I was the first to leave
Precious child, precious child
But in this world, I was left here to grieve
Precious child, my precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart there is hope
And you are with me still
In my heart you live on
Always there, never gone
Precious child, you left too soon,
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
God knows I want to hold you,
See you, touch you
And maybe there's a heaven
And someday I will again
Please know you are not forgotten until then
In my heart you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
In a baby castle, just beyond your eye,
Your baby plays with angel toys that money cannot buy.
Who are you to wish him back into this world of strife,
No, play on your baby, they'll have eternal life.
At night when all is silent and sleep forsakes your eyes,
You'll hear their tiny footsteps come running to your side
Their little hands caress you so tenderly and sweet,
You'll breathe a prayer and close your eyes and embrace them in your sleep.
Now you have a treasure that you rate above all others
You have known true glory,
You are still their mother.
catching up baby
Hello darling, I just want to say thank you for looking after you new little brother and getting him to me safely. Life has been busy lately but I still think about you all the time, now I have a car I will be visiting your grave as soon as it stops raining so I can deliver your presents, So sorry I couldn't get to see you over christmas but I know you understand!
Love you lots baby, we will never forget you and I miss you every minute of everyday xxxxxx
due date
Can't believe that on saturday it will be two years since you should have been born. Have such a mixture of feelings about this darling as if you had been born then I would probably still be with your daddy and i certainly wouldn't be carrying this baby. I hope you know darling that nobody can replace you and I am so sorry I haven't been able to get over to your grave for ages its so difficult without a car.
I know you know that mummy is having this baby on 17th December please look after it and help it to be born safely.
Love you so much baby and think about you all the time
miss you and hope granny is looking after you well
lots and lots of love mummy xxxxxxxxx
getting close to your birthday
Baby, just wanted to let you know you haven't been forgotten, I know I don't write on here very often but you know how bad I am at writing things down and it doesn't mean I don't think about you all the time. In just over three weeks it will be your birthday and that will also mean that I will be that much closer in this pregnancy to the stage at which we got ill with you. I am so scared that things will go wrong again but I have a lovely midwife who is going out and see me weekly to keep an eye on things and I am being monitored so closely this time around. The week before your birthday I will have my 20 week scan so I will get to see your baby brother or sister again. I can't wait but am also scared as everything was fine with you at your 20 week scan and then it all went so horribly wrong only 4 weeks later. I don't know what to do for your birthday, I want to take your brothers down to see your Grandad and Granny Frances and hopefully if I can get some kind of transport sorted out we will go that week so I won't be on my own for your birthday unlike last year and we will go somewhere nice and do something in memory of you. Miss you so much baby, look after this new brother or sister for me and help me to get through the next few weeks.
Love you so much, lots and lots of love Mummy xxxxxx
never forgotten
my darling baby, I know you know that mummy is expecting another baby and I went to see the consultant the other day. he remembered so well what happened when you were born which reminded me of just how unlucky we were. He is going to give me injections to hopefully stop me losing this baby and I know you will be looking down on us and keeping your baby brother safe. Ooops I don't even know if you have a baby brother or sister or is this your way of letting me know its a boy??? I wonder we will have to wait and see. Your big brothers still think about you a lot even if they don't say much, but aidan came home with a little picture the other day and he had called it Gabrielle.
Don't worry my darling we will never forget you you are in hearts forever and in my mind daily.
Love you so much
Mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
no matter what
My darling baby, no matter what happens in my life and even if I am happy with Dan and no longer with your daddy I will never ever forget you.
Even if Dan and I do have a baby they will never replace you.
I will make sure that Aidan and Tristan remember you and you will always be a part of our family and in our hearts.
love you baby so much
Mummy
xxxxxxxxxx
Mummy Loves You
When God Calls Little Children
to dwell with him above,
We mortals sometimes question
the wisdom of his love
For no heartache compares with
the death of one small child
Who does so much to make our world,
seem wonderful and mild
Perhaps God tires of calling
the aged to his fold,
So he picks a Rosebud,
before she can grow old.
God Knows how much we need them,
and so he takes but a few
To make the land of Heaven
more beautiful to view.
Believing this is difficult still
somehow we must try,
The saddest word mankind knows will always be "Goodbye"
So when a little child departs
we who are left behind
Must realize God Loves Children,
Angels are hard to find.
Author Unknown,
This is the poem I read out at Gabrielles funeral and it says it all.
RIP Gabrielle 19th August 2007 an angel looking over me!
I love you so much darling and you are missed each and everyday, I hope you are enjoying yourself with your angel friends and Granny and Great Granny and Grandad are looking after you
Sleep tight baby Gabrielle. Another angel who earned his wings. Find my Maddison and play with all the baby angels in heaven.
The angel of the book of life,
wrote down Gabrielle's birth,
and whispered as she closed the book,
'far to beautiful for earth'.
Lots of love Sarah x
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